How much of your life is your life? How much do you live your life exactly how you want to, and what amount of it to you give away to living the life that is expected of you? Whose expectations are you trying to meet anyway?
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*sigh* I find myself in situations all the time where my thoughts of how things are "supposed" to be get challenged. They get challenged by Cody, myself, and pretty much anyone else. Sometimes "my way" seems so rational that I can't comprehend why anyone would want to do things another way. Sometimes I wonder if "my way" is actually "mom/dad/old friend's way", and I've picked it all up and internalized it over the years. I have a hard time reconciling my old thoughts of how life would be when I "grew up" to the life I now live as a grown up. It's taken me a few years, but I'm finally grasping the fact that the model of family that I grew up with and based my expectations on was broken. But even if it wasn't, that still doesn't mean I have to have the same life. Good Lord, I'm rambling...
I question the same thing daily, I have for many, many years.
Defining things as an adult compared to defining things as a child has been so radically different. I'm finding the longer I hold on to the old image, the more it halts me from living the life "I" want to.
I'm not sure of the answer, but I think everyone should live for themselves.
So much of our lives seem to be patterned after what we thought our lives would be like when we were younger. But for so much of my younger days I didn't think about when I would grow up because I was pretty determined not to make it to that age. Now that I'm a grown up I have no idea what to do half the time. Oh, that reminds me of a joke from a movie that won't translate online....harumph ("I don't know what to do with my hands") It seems so often that we have this idea that life should be all adventure and swooniness (totally a word), when I'm realizing more and more that the adventure and excitement is more often found in the mundane and routine then anything else. Love is in the details I suppose. gah, I totally should have taken today off of work too.
I like it my way. Sometimes I get cranky about it, othertimes I don't. You have to let other people learn somehow what is right or wrong. It's the only way to learn.
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*sigh*
I find myself in situations all the time where my thoughts of how things are "supposed" to be get challenged. They get challenged by Cody, myself, and pretty much anyone else.
Sometimes "my way" seems so rational that I can't comprehend why anyone would want to do things another way.
Sometimes I wonder if "my way" is actually "mom/dad/old friend's way", and I've picked it all up and internalized it over the years.
I have a hard time reconciling my old thoughts of how life would be when I "grew up" to the life I now live as a grown up.
It's taken me a few years, but I'm finally grasping the fact that the model of family that I grew up with and based my expectations on was broken. But even if it wasn't, that still doesn't mean I have to have the same life.
Good Lord, I'm rambling...
I question the same thing daily, I have for many, many years.
Defining things as an adult compared to defining things as a child has been so radically different. I'm finding the longer I hold on to the old image, the more it halts me from living the life "I" want to.
I'm not sure of the answer, but I think everyone should live for themselves.
So much of our lives seem to be patterned after what we thought our lives would be like when we were younger. But for so much of my younger days I didn't think about when I would grow up because I was pretty determined not to make it to that age. Now that I'm a grown up I have no idea what to do half the time. Oh, that reminds me of a joke from a movie that won't translate online....harumph ("I don't know what to do with my hands")
It seems so often that we have this idea that life should be all adventure and swooniness (totally a word), when I'm realizing more and more that the adventure and excitement is more often found in the mundane and routine then anything else.
Love is in the details I suppose.
gah, I totally should have taken today off of work too.
I like it my way. Sometimes I get cranky about it, othertimes I don't. You have to let other people learn somehow what is right or wrong. It's the only way to learn.
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