The thing about the new year is how hopeful you can feel.
That week after Christmas but before New Year (when you actually start working on your resolutions, whatever they may be).
It's the moment when you say, I CAN do this. I WILL do this. Whatever this is depends on you.
It's the hope before you fail and before people start letting you down, before you start letting yourself down.
(Because while I'm hopeful that when I ask for help this year I won't be let down I'm not sure I trust that it will happen.)
But the thing I can't seem to grasp, what I can't seem to grab onto lately is that everyday is a new day. Everyday is a chance to let go of yesterday and what happened and start fresh and new.
Everyday brings with it hope that things can be better and that you can and will do these things, whatever things there are that you want to do.
Every morning mercies are new and there is hope.