Tangled Moments

 I feel unraveled lately. Feelings, memories and thoughts that seem to have been buried so deep they could never be reached again (which was sort of the plan) have been surfacing and tangling around my feet tripping me up.

I'm thinking through my life a lot. It's the end of the year which means it's only natural to begin to do that again. But I'm pretending I'm special and the only one that's doing it right now.
Things have to be different moving forward, and I know the things that need to change. I only lack the courage and motivation to actually move forward and change.

So I'm hanging out with my tangled moments, working out one knot at a time and trying to bring order to a chaotic mind.
In real life turning points are sneaky. They pass by unlabeled and unheeded. Opportunities are missed, catastrophes unwittingly celebrated. Turning points are only covered later, by historians who seek to bring order to a lifetime of tangled moments.
- The House at Riverton

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